Oh where to start... my first blog.... Lets start with Psalms 46:10- Easy one to pray as Partrick Payton would say of Stongate Fellowship my new church I call home (I'll get to that a little later) This passage as he would say would reference the 4 R's to pray for. RESTORE me, REFOCUS me, REASSURE me, RELEASE me. Those are very powerful yet very useful for anybody to live by. In June 2010, God had started to work in my heart, I wasn't bitter towards my ex(or thought so) and I was just being to forgive those who had hurt me.
In the last 3 months my life has turned upside down, and for the better. Had gone thru a divorce (or thought so), working at a job that has no advancement (but stressful), taking care of my 4yr old son. Then it all started. I had a very serious accident the week of Thanksgiving of last year. I should have died in that accident I am certain of. God's grace and mercy were the only things keeping tied down. I'll never forget that day or those moments. I had just dropped my son off at school. Coming into a curve took my eyes of for a second and off the road I went, went to correct and over corrected. That's when my life litterally flashed before my eyes. I was awake for the entire thing. All I could think of was my family ( my son and my ex-husband) was getting out once I landed upside down. I pulled myself out and looked around and could see my son's carseat on the exit ramp of the I-20. Back windshield was busted out... my son had he had been there would now probably be where the carseat was. I was horrified at the site but remained calm surprisingly. Many many gracious people stopped to help..including two nurses. One to stable my neck since all I wanted to do was move around. The other allowed me to call my parents who were only mins from the accident. First on the scene was an old high school friend who works for the MPD. Casey, Thank you for doing your duty and getting there as fast as you could, even if DPS has the county. I did not cry, I did not pass out ... I could remember #'s and birthdates. God gave me strength to get thru all that morning and home by the evening to see my little boy. God's grace allowed me to only have one broken bone in my neck. One week in a cast and I am okay. I still continue to have issues with stiffness with neck but can't tell if that is from my accident or my fibromyalgia. Praise God I am here now and with my family.
Shortly, after that I went back to work. Had some issues there... had to lay low ... working with 20 woment can get a little moody and crazy. But its better now, I believe its because of God in my life regularly. He was there before but now I depend on Him for everything. Probably a couple weeks before xmas I called the district clerks office to get a signed copy of divorce papers for insurance reasons. You should have heard me laugh and ask her three times if she was sure. I even called several days later to make sure. But it turns out that nothing was ever filed from our divorce. Its like God just blotted out that day. hmmmm I wonder why. It was kind of ironic that we met on March 19th 2004 and was getting divorced on March 19th 2010. Guess God had bigger and better plans with us and our testimonies. So we decided to work it out. It has not been easy. It's been easier for us because we have seen God's work before, so we knew that this was His work again. But his family is taking it rather hard. They have so much hatred for me. I asked for forgiveness from God and my husband. They both graciously forgave me. How do you know when God forgives you? To me I can feel the Holy Spirit flowing thru me. I have asked for forgiveness from his family...but some haven't taken it so well. More than one actually. But its ok cuz I know I asked for forgiveness it is between them and God if they forgive me truly. Enough about that.
We are attending church as often as the doors are open. We have been going to the singles group but It feels different. I love Mike's teachings but its "singles".... so we will be finding a COM-GROUP. Joshua was already attending Stonegate for over a year when we decided to get back together. So I decided to join him and leave my home church Calvary Chapel. I am sure I will visit them from time to time but now that my mom is moving who knows. I have completed my final Next Steps 4. I am hoping to get plugged in (serve) in the church soon. I am so excited. I have been refreshing my Sign Language that is what I would like to do is Praise and Worship in sign language for the Deaf Ministry at church. But again its God's will be done thru me in this life after all not mine.
So the journey continues in this adventure with God. Marriage Counseling, marraige retreat and a wonderful bday present trip for my beloved this weekend. It's going to be great. Can't wait to share my story of that weekend.
So please pray for Joshua and I.....pray for our marriage that nothing come between it, no man, no women and no family. After all " If God is For Us then who can be against us"! Amen Amen...
Until next time... blessings!
